The other day I went out to lunch with my coworker at the Golden Chopsticks in Pleasanton, Ca. Good place, two thumbs up and even a four star place according to Yelp! This is our go to place for lunch when we are craving Chinese, decent prices and its a short walk from the office.
And just like any good Chinese food restaurant they end the meal with fortune cookies. Most of the time I do not bother with them, they taste like sweetened cardboard and the little love notes are usually just vague words of nothing. But today I opened it and the note I found has had me pondering its meaning:
‘Be Definite Now, Worry About Precision Later’
My first passing thought was no, this is bad. That this would lead to double the work in the very near future, and anyone following this logic was doomed for making more work for themselves. I left the note on the table and walked away, leaving the fortune and its misguided wisdom. But something in me would not let this be; the restaurant had served me a writ and I could not let it go. My co-work had brushed it off much the same as I did, but I was still grinding it over.
I started to think about many of the decisions I have made in life and how this very phrase has actually been with me all this time. I have pulled the trigger on many things in my life and worried about the HOW later. Sometimes it worked and sometimes it did not, but what I did not have was that longing that I had wished I had of done that very thing. And to follow up on this very though I saw a quote posted on FaceBook:
‘I’d rather regret the things I’ve done than regret the things I haven’t done’ (That little tidbit of wisdom was brought to us by Lucille Ball )
And just like that, the little bit of thoughtfulness and poise found in cookie has come racing back into my mind. I was glad I took a picture of it before I left, I am not 100% sure as to why I took that picture but I am glad I did.
What this little note started in my head was a whirl wind, no it was a storm! I wanted to get it into words before it left me but between work, work and holy shit I want to go to sleep I have been putting it off. But in doing that it has given me time to ponder this post. Not actually work it out in way that would flow logically or grammatically, that is boring, but work it out to the point I had to sit down and make it real.
The very notion of the cookie’s words is why I now have this web site, I have been over thinking my blog for so long that just logging in gave me writers block. I was going to say anxiety but that would be going a bit too far, it was a stress and it did prevent me from doing it.
It was this stress that kept me from not being definite, it was worrying about the smaller parts that kept me from doing this sooner. I like blogging, I like telling stories, I like writing. It makes me feel accomplished. It is my art, I would love to be able to draw an awesome picture, paint a picture on canvas or even make a webtoon but my skills with these devices is blunt and unflattering. My writing is not much better but this is my art and I like it. After years of saying I wanted my own web page I finally did it, and here I am; working out the smaller parts.
What do I want from this page, where am I going to take it, how am I going to get there, when should I post, and why should I bother? These where some of the questions that kept running through my mind, but finally I just said Fuck IT and went to YouTube. I had no idea how this thing worked but thanks to YouTube I was able to navigate through some of the smaller details of the HOW. It was just up to me to figure out the rest. I am here for the therapy, the relief and for the fun of it. If it is not fun, why bother with it at all.
In the end I agree with the cookie, and yes there are times you need to have all your ducks in a row before you do something but do not let the ducks be the reason you never just said Fuck IT!
So till next post; journal often, journal more and take pictures of everything.